How To Live With Peace Of Mind.
Sometimes I think so much, I feel like my head is going to explode…
Beating myself up about the past, hoping and wishing for a better future – bouncing between the shame and regret of the past, and the anxiousness of the unknown future.
I’ve read so many self-help books, desperate to free myself from this inner pain – the unhappiness of where my life is ‘now’.
I’ve studied all the greats: ‘Think And Grow Rich’ By Napoleon Hill, ‘Rich Dad, Poor Dad’ By Robert. T. Kiyosaki, ‘Ask And It Is Given’ By Jerry & Esther Hicks, and of course ‘You can Heal Your Life’ By Louise Hay – the ultimate self-help guru.
Each and every book points to the mastery of our mindset – thinking, feeling, manifesting our dreams into reality.
I worked really hard on this for two years: writing and listening to positive affirmations, gratitude work, meditating, EFT tapping – you name it, and I’ve tried it. I focused so much on trying to change my negative mindset by ‘thinking’ positive thoughts, that it was actually counter productive. My mind felt completely overwhelmed, and not to mention, utterly exhausted!
After examining these two years, I felt saddened in the realisation that although I had some minor progression, and some positive opportunities in the pipeline, not much had really changed. The comparison in effort versus the returns was really quite dismal.
I had been wondering long and hard, trying to figure out where I had gone wrong? All of these books state, you should see a huge difference within twelve months. I was two years in, with no real significant change. It was fair to say my hope and enthusiasm was dwindling fast.
I asked the Universe to help me understand where I was going wrong. The answer soon appeared…
After attending a few yoga classes, something in me began to change – my mind started to find peace. I found myself relishing in the quietness of no thoughts and the calmness of the present moment – it felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders.
Soon after, I felt gravitated to a book that has laid on my shelf, untouched, for many years. I had tried to read it a long time ago, but I obviously wasn’t ready to hear the Authors message.
Now all I could hear was Eckhart Toll calling my name “Stacey, The Power Of Now, The Power Of Now, Oh, for God’s sake read The Power Of Now”. As I read each page, Eckhart’s words resinated with every fibre of my being – finally the answer to my prayers!
I’ve been thinking too much, not living in the now, and in doing this, I haven’t been allowing things to unfold (manifest) naturally. I’ve been clutching on for dear life to the desired outcome: when you don’t let go, the fear overrides everything – keeping you stuck in misery.
I started to do as Eckhart suggests “Just observe your thoughts, do not judge them, just watch”. It’s amazing how quickly the thoughts of past and future disappear as you make a conscious effort to ‘watch’ them.
I wouldn’t say that I’ve mastered ‘The Power Of Now’ just yet, but the relief I feel from focusing on the present moment, is certainly enticing me to embody this practice as a new way of ‘being’.
In the short time I have been consciously focusing on the ‘now’, I feel light, I feel unburdened – I guess you could say, I feel FREE, and guess what? That’s a very pleasant place to be!
Thanks for reading.
I’d love to hear from you. What practice helps keep your mind peaceful?