What Has 2019 Meant To You?
As we come to the end of another year, it’s a good time to reflect on what 2019 has meant to us personally.
For me, the year has been filled with many ups and downs. Centering around letting go of that which no longer serves me (friendships, love, behaviours, etc.) – paving the way to lay down knew foundations… Setting personal boundaries also played a major role in the process of this year’s growth.
I felt like the Universe sent many tests my way, which were emotionally challenging, and resulted in me coming to a fork in the road. Faced with the choice to either turn left into old and comfortable ways, or to turn right into the unknown of the future…
Each time I knew in my heart that I needed to turn right, but my mind was unconvinced and needed to take a couple of steps to the left, just to see, just to make sure my heart knew the ‘right’ answers. Sometimes we need to do this in order to see that we’ve outgrown where we’ve just come from.
I didn’t like going back to the left, although it was somewhat familiar, I felt an overwhelming knowing that I do not belong there anymore. I’m not the same person I used to be ten years, five years or even twelve months ago; nor do I wish to be. When we take these brief steps backwards, it’s a great opportunity to learn and grow from our mistakes, and a chance to close the chapter on those life lessons we no longer wish to repeat. As we grow as individuals, so too, must our choices – this tells the Universe we are indeed ready for a knew chapter of life lessons to unfold.
Turning right into unfamiliar territory is never easy, it takes guts and determination to find your way, which is why so many choose to turn (and reside) to the left when the fork in the road appears – it’s easier in the safety of familiarity, regardless of how much misery that choice actually (and usually) brings.
I spent a big portion of my life allowing this fear to make me run to the left as fast as I could – each time ending in total disaster. I’ve slowly over the years been building up the courage to turn right, and I’m pleased to say that 2019 has been a series of right turns, even though some of them initially started off with me going the wrong way, I very quickly realised I needed to turn around – go back to the fork in the road and turn right onto new and solid ground.
So, all in all, even though I found this year extremely challenging at times, it’s also been one of the most rewarding. As long as we reflect and grow, then really we aren’t doing too badly. I hope that, you too, can find some great positives from 2019, they are always there, you just have to be open to seeing them!
2019 has also been my first year of blogging. It was scary at first to write about some very personal issues, but, I can honestly say, it’s been one of the most cathartic experiences I’ve ever undertaken. When you own your own shit, nothing and no one can hurt you with it. Owning it, means freeing yourself from the crippling power of pain and judgement (from yourself and others).
I’d like to thank my very supportive family and dear friends, I wouldn’t be where I am today without your unconditional love, care, and encouragement. I’m truly blessed with the richness you each bring into my life. I’d also like to thank you, my reader. Your support makes my joy of writing that much brighter.
This will be my last blog post for a few weeks, as I take off to enjoy a holiday and a much needed break. I wish each and every one of you a safe and happy Christmas. May you be blessed with love, happiness and laughter. I look forward to writing for you in 2020.
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